Saturday, August 3, 2019

obstacles. tasks. and the difference.

Yesterday I overcame an obstacle in my path, by patiently working a difficult task.


When working on projects, there are tasks we must undertake that are hard. They take longer than required, and can come up suddenly, unexpected. They nearly halt our progress, and ask of us a quiet determination and patience, to step laterally from our track of project momentum. It feels almost like we've been maliciously stopped by an outside force that wants us to suffer. Like the project is fighting back. This is what we generally call an obstacle.

Being mindful, we can see that the reason this is more difficult than anything else, why it stands out as an issue, is because we didn't plan for it. We are not prepared. It's not that the obstacle is more difficult than anything else, but the mental game is to look at it as such, because no forethought has been put into it by our egoic subject-object thinking.

These hangups feel almost separate from the project, but they are in fact just the next thing in the line of tasks. It's all in our head. Quoting Hamlet, "...there is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so".

During these times, I find it helps me to disrupt my thinking and expect that I don't have all the answers. Expect to be met with a task that is difficult and unexpected, and plan to learn-while-doing in completing it. Expect that it will be more expensive and time consuming, as anything new can be. 

Most importantly, go with the flow.



The story is below: 


We are converting an old school bus into an RV. One of my first tasks, after removing the seats, is to pull up the flooring, walls and ceiling. They all contain about 2" of insulation that needs to be replaced with high density foam spray.

 There are handicap wheelchair anchor rails inlaid in the plywood floor. Each piece is mated to the floor with seven grade 8~ hex head bolts. They were up against the frame rails, lending no chance of getting the impact sockets on it, or even a wrench. The space under the bus was too tight to work tools into.

A few days ago, I first attempted drilling out the bolt heads from the top. I destroyed two bits on seven bolts, using cutting oil. I then took the angle grinder to the underside and cut fourteen more bolts, albeit at the cost of throwing sparks near the diesel tank, which I cleverly shielded with a piece of cardboard, and the cardboard then proceeded to catch fire. I could not do any further work as both of my batteries were dead and we didn't have the generator yet.

Returning home, I read up on drilling steel and discovered that two things had gone unnoticed by me. The tips of the bits I was using were pilot point, which was useless for cutting the shape of material to remove that drilling out the bolt head required. Secondly, I didn't have enough bits. People on the forum I read suggested they went through several. I bought twelve for $30, including a ten-pack of cheap bits that ended up carrying this effort.

Yesterday I arrived at the bus with new bits, a generator, full batteries, and a cup of coffee. I pre-drilled seven heads in a row with a brand new dewalt pilot point cobalt bit, then proceeded to cut through using the cheap bits I had bought, and plenty of cutting oil. It went like a dream, and all seven came out rapidly. What was hours of work the week before was cut down to thirty minutes today by approaching the job ever so slightly differently.

My hands were shaking by having done twenty-one of them, and I had about thirty more to drill at my first break. I had been fighting some which were turning in their holes. At this point I decided that I would leave any that fought for my hands' sake, and go ahead and try the angle grinder on them afterward. I donned my respirator and earplugs, and I ended up having to angle grind several bolts. I should have cut them all like this from the start. By removing tons of material with the angle grinder and just reducing the bolt heads to melted slag, I had saved immense amounts of physical energy.

The obstacle was gone, we could now start unscrewing the plywood floor.



Sunday, November 15, 2015

problem solving

I enjoy problem solving through and through. It's my life's passion. Sometimes I'm a little misguided in it, but I get better over time.

There's a particular principle I feel "cuts to the chase" in problem solving, dubbed "Occam's Razor", named after it's creator in the thirteenth century. Its notion is as such: "Among competing hypotheses, the one with the fewest assumptions should be selected."

Essentially, in scientific problem solving approach, simpler theories are more preferable to pursue, as the complex alternatives that require many unknowns to be solved or proven are less testable theories. If you can't test a theory, or not easily, you can't prove it. We want to prove our theories in problem solving to determine if they work or not.

This is extremely relevant to home mechanic work (in any sense). I recently dropped my most recently purchased tape measure (a nice one I might add) off a third story deck. When it hit the ground, the case split, but thankfully the tape stayed wound. I used it split for a while, then wanted to fix it when I was done with my project. There can be many competing tracks of thought here, but here are three examples:

1. Assume I'll break it more if I try to fix it. Do nothing. (Note that this is based off the assumption that I can't fix it, which is predicting a negative future on all other possible tracks, which is a cognitive distortion).

2. Assume that it could be realigned if I remove the center screw (the only screw) and loosen the housing or open it completely (This is the most testable, as it actually involves action).

3. Assume that the tape coil itself is bound in such a way that the case won't go back together, and it might take hours that I don't have to fix this $6 tape measure. I also don't want to make the tool useless, as while it's broken it's currently functional.

Note that following 1 and 3 are both untestable. I either won't test the theory that I'll break it out of fear of breaking it, or I won't attempt the repair because of the assumed time investment and chance of breaking it.

Ultimately, number two is the track I took and the fix required backing the screw out about a 1/2 turn, the case popped into place and I tightened the screw again. I'm not sure anything has ever been so easy to repair.

So, I suppose this "proof" of Occam's Razor only really applies to situations in which motivation and confidence play a role, but you get the idea. Next time I might blog about something more interesting.

Monday, August 10, 2015

self-awareness


I was at a Buddhist monastery recently, and a young woman visiting had this written on her hand. I thought I would borrow it.



Friday, July 24, 2015

intro

It is so easy a thing to be good and do good. It is easier still to be bad and do bad. It is easy to judge ourselves and actions as either. It is easier still to judge others and actions of others as either.

Pursuing a balanced path, one not of judgement, selfishness or ego, but a path of equanimity, is a great challenge. All the mindfulness I can encourage in myself has taken me a single step onto this road.

In the past, I've had many strong motivations. Each of them has played out leaving me accomplished but with an emptiness that cannot be described but that one undoubtably understands, although perhaps not on the surface. Never has one of them touched on my core beliefs in such a way as to temper and play off my value system such as my pursuit of mindfulness has.

I could speak of mindfulness until I could no longer, and one still may not "get it". Maybe one needs to be pushed there, by a great hardship, or a need for help and guidance that could only come from oneself. To meditate means to study oneself. To learn one's own true core values, and to learn one's own actions and reactions, emotions and desires. 

The greatest gift it gives is a stable footing in life, to learn a certain lateral state beside pride and shame, to treat others with equanimity and fairness in all situations, to recognize and embrace equality.

Having felt like a cartoon character on banana peels in recent times, this stable footing is a boon to my psyche. 

I can now see the doorway through which those who are religious find a certain peace in the nature of causation. However, this doorway in myself is of an empirical and secular humanist nature, devoid of superstition and lies to myself. It sits peacefully, like an archway of cold stone and moss, hundreds of years old, built for a humble purpose.

I have not reached it yet. But I'm taking one step at a time.